Friday, January 29, 2016

Lost Sight of the goal

I recently lost my job from a place that I once loved. I love the product that they offered to their Clientele and I enjoyed what I did. After a while, after the Mundane tasks that the job required I stopped caring and stopped loving what I was doing. It was just another job to get by. I did my job but learning of the people that were around me brand new to the company with less time there and no where near the skill set that I had, they were being praised and paid higher than I was. 
I no longer felt valued as an Employee. I was just another number, another body to fill a seat to bring the company money. I lost sight of what I wanted for myself and my family. I stopped caring for myself. I just went in, did my job and went home and just a repeat cycle that ended up catching me in the end and I lost my job.

With the skill sets that I have I managed to get another job within a week of the Termination of my last job. Not a bad turn around time at all. I had many companies Contact me and ask me for an Interview but all wanted to start me at $10/hr even though I clearly told them I needed to be above $13.00 and what I have experience in I should have been offered above what they were giving, but everyone wanted to start me lower and I just couldn't do that to myself and my Family. I worked hard for the information and Skills that I have obtained over the years but No one cared. They wanted another body to fill another seat. I thought to myself "I can't go through this again. My family can't go through this again."
Job offer after job offer came in and I continually was turning them down. Even though it was a week I had 4 interviews a day lined up and again all turned down due to I didn't like the environment that they provided and what they truly saw in hiring an Employee for. I didn't want to get stuck in a rut and go through this again in 2-4 years down the road. I couldn't bring myself to do. I lost sight of what I wanted for my family once and I wasn't about to let it happen again. One thing that I hate is feeling like I have failed myself and my family and I knew that if I accepted one of those jobs I knew I was going to set myself up for failure once again. I decided that this time I wanted something that I wanted to succeed in. I want to set goals and reach them. Provide myself with a life that I knew was going to be valuable and Rewarding in the end instead of sitting at a job and pushing papers to get by.

The Job that I accepted, doesn't pay a base pay/salary. Its scary as hell know that I am going into a job with no Guaranteed pay. A lot of people might say well the $10.00/hr job would be better than this. For me that is Wrong. The job that I accepted lets me prove my worth and they will pay me what I feel I am worth. If I don't want to work I wont get paid. The job I chose pretty much handed me a paper and said "Skies the limit"  Said "If you want $50,000+ a year prove it to me and I have no problem paying that to you" My boss is  25 years old, owns her own company and makes 6 figures a year. I know that I want to be able to succeed like that. With the company that I chose I have the opportunity to get into a position like this. I know that it sounds like a pyramid scheme and I have seen many like it but its not.

The Position I decided to take is all on my own accountability and allows me to make my own goals and own achievements that within 2 years max I will share in the profit and own my own company. Before the age of 30 I could be my own boss and finally give my family the life they deserve without being an Absent mom. Without being stressed about how we will make it to the next month or how we will make our next meal. I was sick of always living in fear and always wondering what will be next. I chose the opportunity to better my life and my Families life by choosing something that does not limit me. By choosing something that doesn't tells me what I am worth in this world. I have always been someone who is optimistic and wanted to push towards the future but with jobs that dead end and tell you who and what you are worth to them I could never go anywhere.
Nothing in life is ever Guaranteed. You have to have the Will and the drive to want to succeed in this world. There are people who don't want to take chances in this world to stay safe. I have always done that and I needed a change. I wasn't getting anywhere in this world with it. I wanted a new adventure and a new life to put my family in a better place. I have the drive to better myself and other people. I want to lead by an example to my children. I don't want them to feel that they are limited to what the world says that they are limited to. I want them to understand that if they want something they need to go after that. I can't teach that to them if I don't do it first. I can't explain to them how to achieve their goal if I can't achieve mine first. If you Persevere you will achieve what you set out to do. There is no doubt in my mind that if we all were to chance what we want the thing that you want the most will be in your reach. 

Taking this chance is one of the scariest and probably going to be one of the hardest decisions that I have ever made in my life thus far but I know that with a little faith and determination that I will succeed in what I have set out to do the last 5 years that I have never even had the nerve to chance. I am not going to let this Break my spirit and I sure as hell will not let it Change who I am. I will fight for my family to make sure that they get the life that I know that I can give them. "Faith is taking the first step even though you can't see the staircase" 

Anything in life is achievable as long as you keep going.


Tuesday, September 29, 2015

Hard Of Hearing with a passion for music

It's been a while since I have written anything so Sorry if I start to ramble.

My Life with  music and the hearing world has been an Interesting one to say the least. Not many people know of my condition with my ears and the reason why I am so passionate about the music I find. 

To give a little back ground on what I deal with.

I fall into the 1% of the worlds population that will have to have holes in my ear drums or tubes for majority of my life if not the entirety of my life. If I do not have a tube or hole in my ear drums, my ear drums will recede and eventually I will become deaf. I have had 8 different surgeries on my ears since I was 11 months old and 5 sets of tubes. I have quite a bit of scar tissue on both ear drums and I am legally hard of hearing. Another way to put the way I hear the world is this   

When I find music that I love I support it with a Passion. Knowing that one day I wont be able to hear this in the future. I have accepted the fact that I will probably be deaf by the age of 50. That's 25 years to enjoy my kids, family and the music I love before it all is lost forever. Dealing with this issue is one of the hardest things I personally feel that I have dealt with. It frustrates friends and family when they talk to me and I don't hear them and they have to repeat themselves 5 times before I catch everything. I saddens me that they get so frustrated on something that I have no control over. I miss about 40% of my world right now on sounds and what is said to me. The further sound has to travel the less I hear and the lower the tone of voice the less I hear.

To go back to the music part of this post, Music is the one thing that gets me through the hardest times in my life. Despite my disability I don't let that hinder my life or enjoyment of music. I love going to concerts and living in that moment. Enjoy being with like minded people. Being at a concert I fit in no one knows that I have a hearing impairment. We're all there for one cause, one movement and that's Music. 

One band that has gotten me through some of my Hardest times is Adelitas Way. The music is so inspiring and there is a song that fits Every mood I am in. Its amazing. Their lead Rick is one of the best in the Music Industry. He's created a family of his fan base and we are all one. The way he treats his fan base is Best to None as well. Its bands and People like him that make music enjoyable and makes me want to have my hearing that much longer to be able to enjoy something that I love wholeheartedly.

I honestly don't know where I would be without the music in my life. Besides my Family its the one thing that keeps me sane.